1 post tagged “metamorphosis”

Can I tell you a little secret? I still feel like a little girl. Yes, after twenty years on this earth, I still feel like I'm just a kid trapped in some adult's body. Lately, a series of challenging events made me rethink the way I see myself. This is the result of that soul-searching journey.

On losing my "Dad"

my "dad" has been my driving force for a year and a half when he decided to ditch me after a string of squabbles. We were both frank, and we hated each other's guts.

he wanted me to be plain and simple, without my high-maintenance-hello-i'm-a-diva ways. COME ON. those who really know me know that I am so not like that. I found it really mean when he began telling jokes of killing me by pushing me off a bridge. That was too much, and even if it was a joke, I really couldn't take it. It had to end.

It just sucks that my values are different from his.

I still mourn for our lost friendship.

On that Ethics teacher

Hey, I am now recovering from my hardships with Robot! Indeed, sheer perseverance and hard work do pay off. Oh, also those consultations. They established my interest in his subject.

On this bossy friend

I will NEVER be treated like I'm capable of being a slut, a negative influence, or a ditz and a half. I was raised well by my parents, so no matter how superior this person may be, I believe that I should stand up for what I believe in. I don't have bad intentions for anybody, I repeat, anybody. I am aware that I have issues to resolve, but that doesn't mean that I can't be a good friend to those who need a shoulder to cry on or an affirmation a day. I hope that this friend will realize that. I am not an evil person, and I never will be. I have a family who constantly keeps me grounded (literally), and true friends who disillusion me everyday. I can be friends with anyone, and I can even be a good influence. And besides, I am aware of my rightful place in society. In this society. 

On Sebastian

Right, as if he reads my Vox. Anyway, all I can say is, I want to be the one who can make him smile.

On those who question my religious beliefs

Please let me be. I have my own way of communing with the Lord. The last thing I need is someone imposing his or her beliefs on me. Ladies and Gentlemen, I abhor self-righteous people. Also those who think that their beliefs will save me. I have already been saved. I have my own faith, and I practice it. Thakyouverymuch.

On my family

Please, we already have enough problems. I will never be thin or pretty enough, smart enough, or presentable enough. Nonetheless, my family has handpicked by God for me. Love is indeed a rational act, and in this case, I will myself to love them each and everyday. I am lucky to have a family, and I'm very proud of them. They are my shooting star.

On my tell-all ex-boyfriends

Regret is a bitter pill indeed. I have kept my mouth shut about these issues in public because I value all the relationships I've had. The past can never be brought back anyway, so why bother? They're just talk. These things will pass. If people will believe them, so what? At least I know who my true friends are.

On my detractors

So what if I said DA Morga instead of De Morga? Everyone commits mistakes. And it tickles me to know that those who speak ill of me have already violated the retention policy. Material wealth doesn't make them better persons. In their case, it even makes them slack off and comment negatively on people like me who work too damn hard just to be embarrassed in class. I should never be insecure.

On everything else 

God has always been very good to me, so I believe that He can help me when I am already incapable of saving myself. Prayer always works.

 Maybe I'll always be everyone's baby, but this time, I want to be the one who can solve my own problems and get what I want- the right way. This is my little project. All I need is a straaaaaight posture, self-confidence, and a lot of faith. And of course, my dearest friends to back me up.

Carpe diem!